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I have 2 more, recently written. I would say "enjoy," however I don't know if that's the correct sentiment...
I think the second one is a little melodramatic, but I kind of like it as it is.

Falling Apart
I think I'm screaming, but no one can hear.
It's so loud to be but everyone is deaf.
I'm not okay with who I am,
I have this beast in my gut,
And it rips me apart from inside out.
I'm locked inside myself and no one has a key.
My muse is my booze
And my life is a a little knife.
Scarred skin,
Low dipped chin,
I cannot win,
And I just can't pin
What's going on inside my head.

Tearing Me Apart (trigger warning)
Here it comes again.
I feel the fire in my gut.
It takes over me.
Why must this be?

I feel it,
Tearing at my soul,
What should I do?

I consumes my thoughts,
I think of nothing else.
I must live with this beast
Until this pain is released.

I feel it,
Tearing at my skin.
I must lie in my own pool.

Why do I want to go on?
I don't want to stop.
I shouldn't want this,
My razorblade kiss.