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I know how you feel my names hanna and I'm 15. I'm a recovering self harmer. Ive been clean from cutting for 6 months. But I had been hurting myself in many ways since the age of 12. I refused to accept help..that attitude and decision landed me in a treatment center for 2 years..I wans't going to leave until I decided to get better. They could legally keep you there until the day before your 19th birthday. So my choice was to stay in a treatment center for 5 years 13-18, or to get my life together..obviously I got my life together..sometimes people will try to help you. It may seem like theyre being insensative and that they dont care and theyre just doing it because its "their job" but they care..if they didnt they wouldve given up on me. It saved my life. And it can save your's too! PLEASE please, reach out for help!

YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

I'm really glad that you got up the courage to share this on a message board! youve also taken the first step to recovery..admitting that it is a problem!

cutting is like any other addiction..you cant just STOP. You need to get professional help.

this is something thats helped me geth through the hard times:

After leaving his disciples, Jesus walked away and knelt down and prayed, "Father if you are willing, please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine."

The cup of suffering Jesus was referring to was this: Jesus knew in a very short amount of time he would be handed over to die for the sins of men!

In your agony, you CAN pray just as Jesus did! Look at this passage! It says Jesus prayed in agony of spirit. Even if you can't tell anyone how you are feeling right now, God knows your heart and your pain.

What else can you do?

First, believe that God knows you better than you know yourself. Know that at any time you can be angry or pray silently and ask for his help even when there are no words. Ask him to show you how to express what you are feeling when the time is right.

Second, understand that as far as blood is concerned, Jesus shed his blood as a sacrifice for you. When Jesus died on the cross, he said, "It is finished!" He payed the penalty of death for your sin and my sin. Guilt no longer has a place in your life if you believe that Jesus took your sins upon himself on the cross.

Pray this prayer:

"Jesus, I confess that, in hurting myself, I ignore that you were wounded for me. I am doubting you promises, even though I know that you speak truth. I confess that I prefer to turn inward than to turn to you. Yet I am so overwhelmed by the things I feel and I do this because I want to control rather than trust in your control. Please help me."

The freedom to confess comes from knowing that, through Jesus Christ, God takes joy in forgiving us. The Bible says in another passage:

"If you, O Lord, kept a record of sins, O Lord, who could stand? But with you there is forgiveness" (Psalm 130:3)

Once you have had time to realize that the path with Jesus is better than the path of self-injury, allow other people in. God wants to bring what is hidden in darkness to light. If you can't speak openly to someone yet, it probably means you aren't willing to change yet.

Feed yourself with the Bible. Psalms, the book of John and the book of Ephesians in the Bible are good places to start.

Since your self-injury follows a pattern in which you anticipate the places and situations when you are the most vulnerable, begin choosing alternatives such as calling a friend, or reading in a public place long before your emotions reach their crisis point.

When you blow it, don't give in to hopelessness. Pray, and remind yourself that Jesus knows what you are going through and that he wants to help you press on. Read what he said himself: