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I have been cutting for 2 years now. I keep trying to stop, I just can't. my parents have found out a couple times but each time i tell them that i wont do it again. the problem is i have started again. i cant tell anyone. even my therapist, because if it gets to a certain point she has to tell my parents so i dont accidentally kill myself (which i wouldnt do). i scare myself sometimes ad i really want to stop but i cant. i want to tell my parents i want them to hug me ad tell me everything will be alright. but the problem is that it wont. i keep meaning to come clean but i cant. its different this time. my parents said this spring that if they ever found out that i was cutting again they would have me hospitalized. i couldnt handle that. i want to quit but i cant if i dont get help. ive tried on my own its too hard, and i cant tell anyone or i will be put in an institute or something like that. It scares me because i cant even feel it if i cut with a razor anymore. each cut gets deeper, and ive started usig a kitchen knife instead. maybe my therapist is right, maybe i would accidentally kill myself, even though i would never do it on purpose. it scares me but what can i do?